Lexi works cleaning toilets at an Armenian mafia run nightclub that only hires Trans Women as waitresses, bartenders and performers. Lexi comes to work at 5am when the club is empty and she cleans alone. She is grateful for this job as she has aged out of sex work which had also become very dangerous. She had been beaten a few times in the past. She often works 7 days a week.

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Laura is Lexi's former girlfriend, They were living together for 4 years until an explosive incident revealed Lexi's true gender identity. After a short separation they reunited and are now inseparable. Both Laura and Lexi isolate from the world but spend time together in their own bubble.

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Lexi at a post operative appointment with her surgeon. This is the first of three facial feminization surgeries she will have. The surgeon removes the staples after shaving down her forehead to a more feminine profile. Lexi experiences deep anxiety about her appearance and worries that no matter how many surgeries she will have she will never pass as a woman. She grew up in Ecuador in a home with 2 sisters her father doted on. She never felt seen by him. She has focused on this during her therapy sessions.

Lexi must give herself hormone injections every week. She began this practice half a decade ago before she began her surgical journey. She enjoys that it has made her skin and body softer and rounder. It has given her breasts and hips. It has also made her more emotional and she has attempted suicide twice in the past 5 years. Although she's excited about her physical changes she still worries about the prospect of going beyond the point of no return.

Lexi has electrolysis weekly on her face and body. It destroys the growth cells in hair follicles for permanent hair removal. Trans Women do this to avoid having to shave. This process is painful, can take years and can also leave scars. Lexi has also had electrolysis on her genitals in preparation for her upcoming "bottom" surgery. Her practitioner is a Trans Woman and most of her clients are also Trans Women.

Lexi returns home alone after her second surgery. She had her ears pinned back and her nose feminized. She has 3 days to recover and then must go back to work at the nightclub.

Laura is supporting Lexi in her recovery. The first few days after the surgery have been hard as she deals with not only physical pain but depression, fear and doubt about the outcome.

Laura helps Lexi remove her bandages.They are continuing to try to explore and redefine their relationship through Lexi's transition.

Lexi sees herself for the first time after her bandages have been removed. She worries she will never be the ideal of feminine beauty she wants to experience. She says she would like to feel pretty, if only for a short time.

Three months post op. Lexi prepares to move forward with 3 more surgeries in the coming year. Even though she has spent years preparing for her bottom surgery she has moved the date 3 times. She is worried about the finality of that choice and what that would mean for her ability to be in an intimate relationship.

Despite the changes in her physical appearance and two years of Trans vocal training, Lexi still feels like she looks and sounds too masculine. She has anxiety every time she leaves her home, every time she goes to the grocery store or engages in any way with the Cis world. She fears she will never fit into the Cis or predominantly younger Trans community.

Lexi was raised Catholic but stopped going to church when she took the step to come out and present as Trans outside her home. She felt attacked and unsafe in a house of worship. Just recently, she discovered an LGBTQ2 church that is inclusive to all faiths and gender expressions. She has enjoyed attending Sunday mass again and hopes to find community.

Insecure about hereditary hair loss Lexi spends much of her savings on a wide variety of wigs.

Lexi gets ready for a date. Her first since she left sex work where she had several life threatening experiences. She has never dated a man outside of the framework of prostitution and she's nervous but wanting to experiment and explore. She does not define herself as queer. She views herself as Pansexual.

Laura recently moved halfway across the country to be closer to aging family members. This has been devastating for Lexi as they have relied on each other exclusively for support. She left her cat, Mouse, behind as a symbol and promise of her return.